We all have a story, the story of our lives. A huge part of the story is what we have been told by others about ourselves. Nothing wrong or unusual about that. It is normal. However, to the extent that our story is as it is told by others, THE STORY OWNS US. That is, we are victims of our story and not the masters. This situation is quite painful for our spirit because the spirit’s default essence is that of creative freedom. As long as we remain trapped in the situation where the story of our life is in other’s hands, we cannot be free spirits as we are meant to be. This is the source of all our suffering.
A time comes when the suffering becomes unbearable and the spirit cannot take the imprisonment anymore. That is the point at which the spirit rebels and takes the risk of setting itself free from the confinement. From that point, we start OWNING THE STORY of our life. The point of rebellion of the spirit is what I call Spiritual Awakening and it is the turning point in our spiritual growth and evolution of our consciousness.
For me, that point happened on 23rd December 2013. I had gone to visit a friend in the Kenyan coastal city of Mombasa. Something happened on the inside which initiated a series of events of which this website and this story Am typing is one of them. The experience cannot be explained in words but cannot be mistaken. It is something so new compared to the previous state. The most definitive change that came with it was that I shed a certain layer of fear, especially fear and shame about my body. For the first time in my life, I went out to the shops, bought myself a necklace and went shirtless to the beach! This may sound absurd for some of you but I Am being honest with you.
Can you imagine a 36 year old who is so ashamed and fearful of their body to walk shirtless amongst people in a public beach? That was me before the “turning point”! Think of this inner transformation and compare it to a seed that has been in the underground darkness for years and then suddenly germinates and shows up above the soil as a young seedling. Yes, that’s the best way I can relate that experience. There is a sudden exhilaration from the freedom for getting out of darkness in which I had lived for so long.
My new found freedom could be felt by the people around me. My gait changed and also the way I argued about issues. When I went back to work that January of 2014, my colleagues branded me an Atheist within a few weeks! ( I Am a teacher by the way )! The process of conscious growth had been activated. I started discovering new things about myself and getting glimpses about why I was the kind of person that I was. It was very exhilarating. Talk about mastering the formula for solving certain kind of mathematical problems. Talk about making very important inner connections about oneself. I became like a toddler who had just learnt how to walk. I wanted my freedom NOW without minding how I affected others.
Whereas before I was fearful of how I affected others, now I didn’t care a lot. I discovered a lot about myself within a short period and within two years, I had written a book! Yaay! I titled the book “IN SEARCH OF ME”! I actually sold a few copies to my close friends. However, much of he content was second hand and not out of FIRST HAND personal experience. I was still that toddler who had leant to walk on their own but never knew about walking straight and looking out for cars on the road.
With time, the ecstasy went down but the growing continued “underground” as it were. I kept making new discoveries about myself and through many challenges, trials, fears, failings and false starts, I have reached a point where I have come to see that there is no end to the growing process. 12 years later after the initial “sprouting”, I have fully embraced the process and I now own the story of my life 100 percent. I Am not talking of being PERFECT, I don’t think there is any such thing on this physical dimension where even evil can be a cause of goodness. Am talking about having sufficient self awareness to know the two sides of my existence and their potentialities, the physical and the non physical aspects. Whatever I share with you on this portal is what I have gone through experientially up to now.
When you pass through the turning point and start owning the story of your life, the way you tell it changes drastically. You kind of stand outside of yourself and feel like you are talking about somebody else who used to exist. Think about the difference between a child when it was in the womb and after it is born. Or compare it to a chick in the egg and after hatching. It is the same “individual” but also in very different dimensions. Before Awakening or sprouting, we are encased within our story. It cant be otherwise. I and my story are one! However, after Awakening, we stand outside our story and tell it from a third person perspective. That’s where I find myself now. That’s what we call LIBERATION from our story.
All I can say at this point is that we are all on our personal journeys to OWNING OUR STORY. We are also at very different phases and stages on the journey. Therefore there is no comparison possible and neither is it necessary. We learn our lessons in different ways, that’s why we all need different teachers to teach us the same lesson. I hope you will find in me a teacher suited to your personality and character. If not, keep moving until you get a teacher with whom you resonate. The most important thing is to have the seeking spirit. When the student is ready, the teacher ALWAYS appears.
I cant possibly enumerate the many experiences i have had and how they have shaped me. However, there has been a cumulative effect from them all. Its just like a seedling needs several seasons of rain to start flowering. Within each seed is its own unique seed plan for its own growth and evolution. Our requirements are not the same. Find and stick to your own seed plan. That’s the struggle. That’s what Am calling OWNING OUR STORY. It takes courage but once you take the first step, you will never look back again.
Best wishes on your journey and welcome for a one on one chat. Contact me anytime. Thanks for visiting and reading.